“Be
careful ya Cuni. Remember you have us, so you should take a really good care of
yourself.” (You on Monday, 14 March 2011. 06:01:17 PM)
If only I could
pick the time, I would love to pick those times. The time when I met you, the time
when we got laugh, the time when we faced the life together. They were the
greatest 4 years though I even forgot how the details. I felt blessed for I was
there with you to fight against your life. It was nice when we spent the whole
night at the internet café when you talked about your past. The way you told me
how bitter it was, it was getting on my nerves and strengthening me all at
once. I wanted to hurt them who hurt you, I wanted to fade your pains away. I
wanted, but apparently I only could to be there to know how it felt. And you
know what? It was love, it wasn’t lust.
Do you remember
the time when you told me that I have to tell you everything I need? I still
remember how tasty that ice cream, it has been my favorite till now. Everytime
its sweetness melts in my mouth, I remember how sweet my life only for I know
you. I worshiped myself when you told me that you never want to get married,
for that was what I wanted to hear from you. And yes, until this day it has been so me too. I was happy because you explained about how nonsense the marriage for you. It is not because I don’t want you to live happily with
someone you love, it is because I know that we have weird thing in common. They
were the greatest 4 years. I blame myself for I wasn’t on your graduation day.
I felt embarrassed for that was something I couldn’t reach but I was happy too for
more or less, I was with you before that step. It’s more worth a penny to be
there.
“The distance between us makes it so hard to
stay. But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe. It hurts but it may be the
only way.” I hate this Maroon 5 though I can’t get enough to listen
to it
over and over again. I remember how you sang this one. Yea, you are there
now,
living your life to reach what you’ve dreamed for. I’m happy for it but
to be
honest, I was happier when I could see you often. Nothing lasts forever,
right?
I can’t forever see you, I can’t forever face the life with you so this
is me against my life alone. But don't worry, I'll be there to accompany
you everytime you need someone else to face your life.
I
don’t even
know when I will die. But when the time is coming, I will be there to
tell Him
how great is His self for He created you. The way you’ve called my name,
that
has even been my personal blessing. Well yes, I got it wrong. It is not
"it was love, it wasn't lust" anymore but it is "it has been love, it hasn't
been lust".
Ah poor me, I don’t even
have our picture.
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