I begin today with the strange feeling. I exactly don't know what it is, but it feels calm and warm inside. Everything has been so fucked up lately, I haven't known what I must suppose to do to fix everything. What makes it weird is I feel that I don't need to know about it now. I just understand what I want to do for my self.
I want to do everything I love. I want to move from here. To be honest I want to stay in Jogjakarta. I've never been there before, until this second. I just imagine that it will be kinda the nice place to stay in. I want to read more, I want to write more. I want to watch and talk football more, I want to enjoy the dusk time, getting some lovely night walking. I want to attend any theatre show, being amazed and amused of it.
I imagine how happy it will be when I begin my every morning with a cup of hot traditional coffee, begin every single morning with the save feeling. I'm not kinda religious or smart woman, but one thing I understand is God wants me to enjoy my life. He wants me to do everything I love.
I want my fresh morning air, as the fresh as my feeling because I live anything I love up. I guess it's enough for me to do everything I hate, to push myself to fuck my own self up. I want to smile and laugh more, I want my happy life. I want to be a columnist, I want to write some books. I want to stop moaning and crying. I want to stop getting guilty and angry. I want my happy life. I mean, I need my happy life, my happy me.
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